I found my Bandung in Subang Jaya

While window shopping in Empire Mall today, I stumbled across a very good deal for babies and children clothes at the F.O.S outlet. Being a stingy yet brand conscious bitch, the labels of Baby Gap, Old Navy and Nike caught my eyes. It cost RM13 per piece or buy 2 at the price of RM21. That is dirt cheap for brands like those! Even a bodysuit from Pumpkin Patch cost RM43.

Wasting not a second more, I ransacked the whole pile of clothes looking for the right size and colour. I ended up buying 4 pieces... with the sales person giving me that sarcastic look that says, "Is that all? You sure looked like you're going to buy 40 pieces!" Lol. Sorry missy. My money, my say.

Wait, is that a mommy or a bimbo? Or both?

I just don't get how some people think. On one hand, she got so paranoid over the daughter's sex education, telling Dear Hubby how diligently she educates their child on that topic and how she doesn't trust her own sister with the daughter because she's a lesbian. On the other hand, she allows her 9 year old daughter to watch Glee where teen pregnancy, living with boyfriend before marriage and relationships between gays are shown. When asked why the mommy didn't stop her from watching such tv show, the daughter proudly answered, "My mommy watched it together with me!" *speechless*

Moreover, shouldn't she be more worried about her husband with the daughter than her lesbian sister? Duh! No one deserves an Oscar that says, 'Best Drama Queen / Bimbo Mama Year 2010' than her, seriously.

I'm sick of getting sick

I am infected with the flu virus again. For the 4th time this year! Twice when I was pregnant, once when I was all alone with baby (my mom had to fly down to Jakarta to care for baby while I tried to stay away from baby as far as possible) and now. One website says people who are stressed, unhappy and lack of exercise are more prone to flu than others. Well, how true is that?

The last straw perhaps?

Have you ever missed someone while feeling a sense of relief at the same time that you're thousands of miles apart?

I don't know whether this is one of the signs that the relationship is falling apart. Perhaps I'm in dire need for some real break. Or maybe, I'm just too tired of all the nonsenses and unfairness done towards me since day one. The recent incident may just be the last straw that broke the camel's back.

Cheers to blithering idiots in my life

They say, "It isn't life if there's not a single worry or problem". The thing is... I have too many of them. One after the other, they're driving me nuts.

Are guys generally dummies when it comes to the understanding of c-o-m-m-i-t-m-e-n-t? Well, who doesn't like to be out partying and mingling with hot chicks or hunks? I DO! I miss my younger days when life was full of late nights parties without having to worry about anything else. Now my life is never without milk bottles and soiled diapers. It's perfectly okay to go out for some booze sometimes but knowing where to draw the line and respecting the hates of your other half are the crucial part in every marriages, no?

Are ex-es generally a pain in the ass for the guy's current? They have a daughter together. I understand that point perfectly. They want to talk for hours regarding their daughter? That's fine. She wants her daughter to be an all rounder by bombarding her free hours with tons of activities while he pays for it? That's okay too. But to ask whether he has the daughter's shampoo in our house??? Oh, I didn't know we're supposed to stock up Loreal kids in vanilla or Redken readily in our house just for a 9 year old! She really ought to shut up about spoiling the daughter and all.

Argh. A week of nonsense. I had enough, seriously.

A daughter, a wife and a mother

When I was young, I thought it was hard to be a filial daughter.
After marriage, I realised to be known as a good wife is even harder.
But in actual fact, to be the greatest mom is the hardest of all.

Lebaran

Raya (Muslim celebration) in Jakarta is known as lebaran. And it is such a big thing over here. Shops were closed, there were no traffic jams every where and almost zero cabs were seen on the roads. Fireworks went on and on for days, especially on the eve of lebaran. It has been a hectic week for me. Parents-in-law came to visit, Dear Hubby's daughter was here for one whole week and my parents went back to K.L just this evening. This is the first time ever, that a raya week was so full of activities that I felt extremely exhausted. Perhaps I'm not used to a 'family life' just yet.

Letting go

I'm sleep deprived and extremely tired. Still, I'm awake and blogging at 4.50am. Sometimes I just need an outlet to vent my anger and frustration. Being an online game freak half my life, I haven't touch the mouse for the longest period ever and I'm starting to feel so disconnected from the world.

Ever since I am back in Jakarta, I do not have time for a proper bath, let alone time to go online. Hired help is on the way but will it solve the actual problems? I can no longer tolerate certain people who shouldn't have existed in my life if I choose a different path. I keep telling myself that such bimbo should not affect my life but when Dear Hubby repetitively gave in to her requests or when he failed to defend me as his wife when she said something stupid, should I still tolerate such idiotic actions by both of them?

It's high time I let go of things that caused much grievance to myself.